Mom - today is a very sad day for all of us!! Sunday was the last time you said anything to us & it was I love you too! There weren't any other words after that! I held your hand & didn't let you go as you took your last breaths - I can't get that out of my mind!! You were there when I came into the world & I with you when you left. I think sometimes if I got you to the hospital sooner when I wanted to maybe it would have been different - maybe you would have had more time with us!! But you were stubborn & didn't want to!! You are always in our thoughts - just a bit more today than others - I love you & miss you so much - but I know you are watching over us - & you know we still need our mother!! I miss hearing your voice & your laughter - I try playing it in my mind!! I'm sorry we couldn't have done more for you - but you weren't alone! Love you always!!
Its hard to believe that is been a year since you left us grandma.I remember that whole weekend.On that saturday I was With you as long as i could. I was with you since 2 oclock pm to 7:30 pn.Then on sunday I was with you from 8:00 am to 9:00 am the next day. Iknew you were dieing and shouldve stayed with you, but i left.i still think about that momement and how i shouldve stayed with you longer.Then at 4:08 pm on monday that same day i left you at 9:00 am aunt diane called us and gave us the news that you left us all.That momement made me cry, and cry, and cry.I still have flashbacks of that day.That momement sill makes me cry.Love you.
Grandma I still remember taking Janice to Libby Lu's.You always took the tour of Metuchen because you would never go on the highway.I also remember going up the hill by Menlo always thinking that we are not going to make it.I also always remember you always asking how did my boy Jose do?Those were your last words to me.Times have been so hard since you left.I know you are looking down on all of us right now.I love you grandma.
Mom I just can't believe it's going to be a year next month. It still dosen't seem real - I think of that awful day when they took you to the hospital - none of us ever thought you wouldn't be coming home. I'm glad Herc got to see you before you went. I figured it was going to be Ok & they would send you home after they made you better - like you would always come home!! I still can't absorb how fast you went - you didn't want to linger - & God didn't let you. It was just so fast & too soon!! Well have to go now - I will talk to you later!!
Love You
Well we went for crabs last weekend with our friends - it was funny & sad at the same time - they ordered rice pudding for dessert - I remember all the times we had to bring you rice pudding!! Even the waitresses at the restaurant would get a kick out of it!! How about the times we'd call you from a restaurant & read the desert menu to you - then you would need it read again - so we would just put the waitress on the phone & they would have to read it AGAIN!! We'd get home & we wouldn't even be in the door yet & there you are with fork or spoon ready to dive in!! I really miss that! Sometimes I would find my self going to call you & do it all over again - then I remember you're gone!! We can't share that anymore - but we always have those memories right!!
Love & Miss You Always!!!
